"inner work art gallery" > "training intensive"

choosing a frame of thinking during a challenging time in my life

I am a creature of rhythms, and I’ve been lucky enough to find a routine that has been playing a beautiful melody over the last two years.

Being a young adult is hella of a task and it is thanks to N and C that I have been able to ground myself in the midst of life. I take their classes religiously, prioritizing them over any other happenings, and I observe a substantial difference in how my organism feels before and after these classes.

I am lucky and privileged to have teachers like them.

And as life kept life-ing, I found myself in the darkest month of the year. Not only was the sun setting at four in the afternoon, but also I got a message from C:

“Dear students, I was on my way to teach this morning and I got a call. I wont be able to teach for some time,” C said.

Alright. No class from C then. At least I have N right?

“No,” the Universe answered as I entered a yoga studio and learned that they too is having life happenings.

And it was there and then that I realized that not only am I a creature of rhythms, but I am also an addict to them as I observed my energy subside, feelings of anxiety arise, and a work deadline hit my fragile state of being.

“We need an intervention,” I thought to myself.

“I’ve got a solution,” the Fixer in me replied and pulled out Notion.

Being aware of the power of frames, I (Universe) wrote a letter inviting myself to the Training Intensive, aka a training ground for exercising my skills independently.

The Critical Self then decided to poke the chosen frame by asking AI’s take on it. To her unsurprise, it came out with a list of alternative frames for my case. One of them especially caught my eye:

An art gallery! YES. That’s what it is. I am not testing myself. I am showing what I’ve got while exercising its depth.

And so for the next weeks I went on with the frame of an Art Gallery, while listening to a playlist from Past Self reminding me of that.

I have now passed the work deadline and as a gift I got a daily presence of my yoga teacher in the last week. Thank you N. And C is back next week.

Now, it is good to have them back and it is also good to have an awareness of my addictive patterns because now as I go into my life, I ask myself:

how might I find a balance in having teachers to rely on while independently grounding myself?

I don’t know - but we are figuring it out as another work deadline is coming up.

Huggingly,
Svitlana

P.s.: who I am is always changing and what I wrote is likely outdated at the moment of your reading. I welcome your pokes.

P.s.s.: And here is another interesting reframe that AI came up with: